saltandlight

I’ll be honest, this one is a little harder for me to write. I usually try to keep things light hearted and funny. And I really try not to complain too much. But I’m struggling this week. And maybe some of you can relate to what I’m feeling and maybe that’s why I’m feeling led to write about it.

I’ve been dealing with an infection in my finger for almost two months now. I didn’t know how serious it was at first. When it first started bothering me, I figured it would just go away on it’s own. I tried some antibiotic cream and tried soaking it. After a couple of weeks I finally went to the doctor for an antibiotic and I thought that would surely take care of it. Nope. 10 full days and the finger was still hurting and swollen. It didn’t really look that bad just painful and swollen. So I went back, we tried a steroid and we’ve tried two more antibiotics and a prescription cream and none of it has worked. Finally I had an Xray and it was determined that the infection is in the bone (osteomyelitis). And now I have been referred to a hand specialist. This was all told to me last Tuesday morning. I was scheduled for an MRI, the MRI machine was not working so they had to reschedule the MRI. I had to call the doctor’s office yesterday morning to follow up on getting the appointment with the specialist since I hadn’t heard anything from them. There was a lot of back and forth and calling around but now I’ll be seeing the specialist today.

I am trying to be patient. And I am trying not to worry about too much. (If you read online about this it can seem pretty scary.) But, the longer this drags out, the harder it is getting. I’ve been praying of course! And I know there is a reason for all of this. But I just can’t imagine what it is. I’ll admit I have not had to deal with a lot of health issues. I’ve been blessed in that way. And this is just such a weird thing! A lot of people have asked me how I got an infection in my finger and I really don’t know. Leave it to me to have something weird. LOL

It seems like such a minor thing. A finger, I know. But let me tell you, that finger is very important. And it has let me know just how important it is! It’s hard to do anything without bumping that finger. And if it gets bumped just right, it literally feels like it got slammed in the door!

There is something that a friend of mine says a lot that I have learned to remind myself of in times like this. “Trust Him when you cannot trace Him”. When you can’t see what the Lord is doing or how He is going to work things out, that is when you really just have to put all of your trust in Him. And that is where I’m at right now. I’m having to tell myself that a lot these last few days. Because I sure can’t see what He’s doing here! But I know He has a reason. There is always a reason for our struggles. Even if it is just to bring us a little closer to Him.

“And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9

God is always faithful to see us through. He will see me through this as well. And there will be some type of blessing to come from it.

I hate to complain because there are so many people dealing with harder situations than mine. But at the same time, God’s promise applies to them as well. Whatever you may be struggling with right now, God’s word makes that same promise to you. James even tells us to count it all joy when we face trials.

“My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations; Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience. But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.” James 1:2-4

And in Isaiah God promises to be with us through our trials

“Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.” Isaiah 41:10

So I will keep y’all updated and maybe I just needed to get this out but I feel a little better already! Prayerfully things will work out for the best possible outcome, whatever that may be. I will continue to trust God!

Blessings,

~ Cheryl