saltandlight

So, this year has had it’s challenges.  I’m sure I’m not the only one that can say that.  I’m also very sure that my challenges are small compared to some that others are facing.  Don’t get me wrong, alot of good has happened this year!  Alot of my prayers have been answered this year!  But, one small problem can cloud our vision.

Let me say first off that I have always been one that has had tremendous faith in God.  I’m not bragging about it, I just want you to see how the enemy works.  I was always the optimist and never have been much of a worrier. I actually would call the amount of faith that I had, child like.  My faith wasn’t so much because I was such a good Christian.  It was more of a natural thing.  When my husband was sick, had to quit his job and I was pregnant with our first child – I had faith that God would get us through.  When we left our church because we felt God was leading us to leave and had no idea where we were going next – I had faith that God would see us through.  The Bible tells us that we should have a child like faith.  Why child like?  Well, children seem to have more faith than we adults do, don’t they?  Children – they believe what we tell them.  They have not yet been hurt by the lies of the world.

About 3 years ago, I did start having some anxiety. My faith started to get weak.  I knew what needed to be done, I started praying and studying my Bible more.  I got into the scriptures and prayed and prayed.  And of course my anxiety got less and less.  My faith grew stronger. Well, as this year got busier and busier guess what? I studied scripture less and less.  And the old devil just snuck his way right back in.  I started doubting that God could handle my problem.  Well, not that he could handle it, but rather that he would handle it.  I thought maybe He isn’t going to help me this time, because I’ve done this to myself.  I’ve brought on some of these problems and I’m going to have to find a way to handle it myself.  (I know, I can just see the Father shaking his head at me)  So, of course things didn’t get any better.  And my anxiety got worse. That devil is so sneaky.  If we let our guard down at all, he finds a way in.

So, God started speaking to me in many different ways.  Through sermons, through friends and even through songs.  I heard a song on the radio one day that really spoke to me.  I had heard the song before, but I actually listened to the words of it and it was exactly what I needed to hear.  It said, “When did I forget that you’ve always been the Kind of the world?” (by Natalie Grant).  Wow!  It was God speaking to me and saying, “Now, are you ready to trust Me!?”  The answer was Yes!  So, I’m on the verge now of really watching God do something here.  I can’t wait to see how it plays out.